Honestly, I feel like these past few years (especially after I graduated high school) have FLOWN by. The freshman that I played softball with when I was a senior are now graduating!! Congrats Class of 2014 by the way:)
I have struggled the past year, with feeling very stagnant, like although I was very busy and had tons of stuff on my plate and was accomplishing every thing I needed to, I wasn't moving forward with any of the goals I had set for myself. I mostly struggled with the idea that I wasn't making an impact on anyone, or doing anything that was really 'worth' something. I think part of the reason I was feeling like this was because I had taken a year off school, but am really excited to be starting again at Cal State San Marcos in the Fall:)
It took me talking to my dad about feeling this way as well as my Bishop (Church leader) to fully get my feelings of being stagnate under control. Both my dad and Bishop had told me that I had made these choices to take a year off school and be where I was because I felt strongly that I needed to stay home to work through some stuff and help out some family members. But I think the best advice I had gotten from my dad was this…
"Kayla you are never going to know if you impact someone. You could smile at someone on the street and change that persons life completely, but the point isn't to seek recognition for your impact. The point is to live your life according to how you want to be remembered, and the rest will fall into place." I kid you not that moment changed my life. I want to live my life in a way that if someone spoke badly about me the person that it was being told to wouldn't believe it. I do want to impact the world, as I'm sure everyone does, but if we only want to impact the world based on the recognition of the deed, what good does it do?
So as I look back on these past almost 21 years I realize that the decisions I have made, the friends I've made and lost, the accomplishments I've achieved, and the failures/trials I've had have all made me who I am. The good, the bad, and the ugly are all apart of this life.
If there is one thing that I think I've learned the most is that if you are content with where you are and aren't trying to progress even if it's one centimeter at a time…you WILL NOT get very far.
Sorry I've rambled. I hope this made sense:) until the next time…
Enjoy the Kakes!!
I have struggled the past year, with feeling very stagnant, like although I was very busy and had tons of stuff on my plate and was accomplishing every thing I needed to, I wasn't moving forward with any of the goals I had set for myself. I mostly struggled with the idea that I wasn't making an impact on anyone, or doing anything that was really 'worth' something. I think part of the reason I was feeling like this was because I had taken a year off school, but am really excited to be starting again at Cal State San Marcos in the Fall:)
It took me talking to my dad about feeling this way as well as my Bishop (Church leader) to fully get my feelings of being stagnate under control. Both my dad and Bishop had told me that I had made these choices to take a year off school and be where I was because I felt strongly that I needed to stay home to work through some stuff and help out some family members. But I think the best advice I had gotten from my dad was this…
"Kayla you are never going to know if you impact someone. You could smile at someone on the street and change that persons life completely, but the point isn't to seek recognition for your impact. The point is to live your life according to how you want to be remembered, and the rest will fall into place." I kid you not that moment changed my life. I want to live my life in a way that if someone spoke badly about me the person that it was being told to wouldn't believe it. I do want to impact the world, as I'm sure everyone does, but if we only want to impact the world based on the recognition of the deed, what good does it do?
So as I look back on these past almost 21 years I realize that the decisions I have made, the friends I've made and lost, the accomplishments I've achieved, and the failures/trials I've had have all made me who I am. The good, the bad, and the ugly are all apart of this life.
If there is one thing that I think I've learned the most is that if you are content with where you are and aren't trying to progress even if it's one centimeter at a time…you WILL NOT get very far.
Sorry I've rambled. I hope this made sense:) until the next time…
Enjoy the Kakes!!